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October 8th, 2009

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September 30th, 2009

08:11 pm - Revenge Is a Bitch Best Served Cold. Fucking Twilight. What a total load of shite. I am half way through now and things are finally 'starting to happen' but all this vampire / warewolf shit is pissing me off royally. Its WASHING STATE! Do you really think for one moment that people might even have sex there, let alone anything else remotely interested happening? Bollacks. Its about as exciting as Retford. I guess this book is the best thing to ever happen to it.  Bitch ass crazy mofo is upstairs getting her shit. I have told her that deadline is up, anything left in the house tonight is going in the bin. I have taken her beloved pole dancing pole and will be auctioning it off on ebay tonight most likely. Its bearly used so anyone that is intrested, feel free to let me know. I am still thinking of ways to hurt her. Its kinda hard when I dont know where she lives. But I have a feeling that she is going to go back to work soon so I have plans on slashing her tyres, keying her car, whatever I can get away with and not be arrested. Then again, she works in Rotheram, it wouldnt be so hard to bribe some little junky to do it for a chocolate bar. I even thought about robbing her work last night lol Venom comes in all shapes and sizes. I have never ever been a mean person, in fact I go out of my way to help strangers. But she brings out the very very very worst in me. I have never ever wanted to hurt someone the way I want to hurt her right now. 3 years of psycotic behaviour and taking my money has taken its toll. I honestly have a hatred burning inside of me that I have never experinced before. Its quite scary actually. Revenge is a bitch best served cold. I am fucking freezing mate. Watch this space.   Current Mood: infuriated

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September 24th, 2009

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September 15th, 2009

11:49 pm Two weeks later... I finally get around to being arsed to update. Maybe I have a mental 'un-emo' block that prevents me from rushing to the computer at every opportunity to pour out my deepest darkest shit onto a pixelated page. But fuck it, here I am, once again, with so much I wanna rant out, but can't really be bothered! I am really proud of myself for sending the most epic message to the psycho ex girlfriend. I don't have ttime for niceities especially when shes a attention seeking nut case. She needs to get her shit and get out of my house and leave her keys and a few grand on the way out. I am truely a woman scorned and I was considering fucking someone on her bed but then again, that might be a little low, even for me. If I fuck a midget.. does that count as only half as bad? Or I could just take my friends advise and fart on her pillow to give her pink eye... If I have a curry anytime this week ill bear that in mind... Work have decided to screw me in the ass with no lube and no thought for a condom so I have been left with little or no choice... I am gonna go back to 'work'. Not that I had really planned it or even really want to, but when they decide that you have to work for a week without pay the day your meant to book a plane ticket to America, needs must. So I am going to sign up with a couple of agencies, take a quick trip to the GU (I know I am clean, I am just too broke to pay for my own condoms) and off I go! I havent fucked a guy in 3 years, knowing my luck king dong will fancy a bit and will be my first client. I may rip in two but providing the money stays in one piece, I am a open (legged) book baby! Urh. I need a chill out! What I need is a good rave. Somewhere nice and scenic and completely illegal. Where the generator never runs out, the drugs are free and easy and there is lesbian paddling pool oil wrestling to the tune of 'Smack My Bitch Up'. I can't think of a better way to relax! Ive been really good recently and laid off the drugs. Well almost laid of the drugs. Got it down to about once a month and sometimes its Mcat rather than that harder shit. I have a big gig in birmingham this saturday in which my sexy friend L is attending with me. Should be immense fun as there will be a good few celebs to party with (I know the headlining band) afterwards and I am planning on getting completely cained. Altho I have to drive back from the gig so have to stay sober til the after party. Grr. I did attempt to watch V for Vandetta having not slept in two days, coked off my face and considerably stoned. Great film but I could learn quantum physics easier than I followed that. Donnie Darko on Ketamine.. Now THAT was an experience! I have plans on trying out horton heres a who 3D on 2CB.. watch this space... I am now doing to get a earlish night, lie in bed and plot how best I can piss my ex off. Id sew prawns into the hems of her curtainsbut since she never cleans and never takes her trash out, she'd probably think something had died in her room and would end up suffering the smell anyway. I don't give a shit.. But if I did, you'd be the first person I'd give one to.... Pea's Out.  V Current Location: Livingdoom Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Hard Techno

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August 30th, 2009

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September 6th, 2007

01:52 pm  Calmer today... Only took a few weeks lol Current Mood: contemplative

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July 5th, 2007

10:10 pm Fucked off. Angry. Frustrated. Wants to throw something. Sick to the back teeth of this crap! Someone please just erase my memory. Current Mood: infuriated

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September 19th, 2005

03:34 pm - Eat me I just read the most disturbing yet brillient book ever..... Exquisit corpse by Poppy Z brite. I have plans to quote many references to it on here altho I dont have the book in my posession. Altho after reading that book it reawakened my previously well dormant desire to eat human flesh. At college I was called 'Cannibal Christian friend' for this same very reason. Altho now I am vegetarian and I think it would be innapporpiate for me to eat anything that had blood in it. So after some research I found my answer within HUFU!! http://www.eathufu.com/ Its the vegetarian and very accurate alternative to eating human flesh... tasted just like human flesh, and even looks like it :) Im very excited.. Placing my order for some as we speak. Im looking forward to having a nice piece of ass kebab! I love my life :) Current Mood: Delighted Current Music: Mumblings of the libary people

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September 5th, 2005

05:08 pm - YAYNESS! I have been working so hard and so far in the last 3 days I have managed to bag myself almost half a years salary!!!!!!! HOW INSANE IS THAT???? Altho tonight i have an all nighter job. Pays extremely well but the guy is in love with me and BORING! Cant handle that shit. Think of the money Vicky think of the money.... I have big plans on saving and paying off debt and NOT blowing all of it on my girlie at Spearmint Rhino.... ALtho I am heading there tomorrow. Its my reward to working 20 hours a day. I think I deserve it eh? Feeling SO happy coz things are looking up. Financially things are getting great! I get paid back some money jo owes me as well as bagging my new job at the end of October, My niece is adorable and loves me and has learnt to wave! Shes so cute. Altho I have no gf as such yet, I am looking forward to the students coming back. That means I can ring Jenn up for some kinky naughty bondage sex with no strings. Shes wild! And a fringle which is always useful....... Hmmmmm I need to buy a laptop.. Lived without one too long now. Bastards! Imma fire proof and put mobile bombs on my doors for when they try and break in again....... Bring it on mother fuckers!! Ps.. I want to go to corp! And plus, Fuel the gnew gay club is quite cool! Some bad ass sexy ladies there... wanna go with me anyone??? Current Mood: excited Current Music: The typing sounds of other libary users

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September 2nd, 2005

07:50 pm - If you wanna fuck with the Angels, its me who holds your wings Why is it when normal, lovely, intelligent men turn into disgusting degrarding and revolving animals when you involve their penis. Men + sex = Evil mother fuckers. I dispair of the human race sometimes. Today I went to the clinic to have my normal STD testings done. The BBC filmed me again for Panarama. Now the entire world will see me with no bottoms on with my legs in strirups having things inserted into every orifice. Also, the entire world will know I am a whore. Great. I cant wait to start my life in hiding. What the fuck was I thinking????? Current Mood: embarrassed Current Music: Cool - Gwen Stafani

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August 23rd, 2005

02:24 pm - 'You can suck them if you want....' I am having a little bit of an elicit and WRONG affair is an extremely attractive Stripper... She tells me to and gets me to do naughty things with there is no one watching and LOVES it! Also has requested my e-mail address to send me pictures and also so we can meet up.. Even shared with me Mastrebation fantasies about other women.. I think I want to die. I cant take this much sexual energy! But OMG how good...... Current Mood: predatory Current Music: My Hacking cough

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August 5th, 2005

05:42 pm Feeling very depressed still. On wednesday night whilst I was at work, someone took a crowbar to my door and broke into my house. They stole my old and brand new laptop. Everything contained within it I was gutted about, plus how long it took me to save for it. Everything was meant to be new, Ive only lived there 3 weeks! Just feel crap. So sad that someone violated my home. :( Baby is giggling tho so shes making me happy :) x Current Mood: sad Current Music: Baby Giggles

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August 2nd, 2005

01:11 pm I have to put a few of these on, they are making me laugh! LiveJournal Haiku! Your name: candlebaby Your haiku: dirty old man he said what have you got there young vicky i wanted Username: Created by Grahame LiveJournal Haiku! Your name: candlebaby Your haiku: euphoria and tears will follow loose at least if my heart will break for Username: Created by Grahame LiveJournal Haiku! Your name: candlebaby Your haiku: can see it and i have never known a game so damn pig ignorance Username: Created by Grahame LiveJournal Haiku! Your name: candlebaby Your haiku: my internet is meant to be seen nearly cried when it flashed tho Username: Created by Grahame LiveJournal Haiku! Your name: candlebaby Your haiku: meh gonna get a fucking ponce does he think i was late getting there Username: Created by Grahame LiveJournal Haiku! Your name: candlebaby Your haiku: all im beaten and bruised scractched as was he and jenn you should see Username: Created by Grahame LiveJournal Haiku! Your name: candlebaby Your haiku: i can pay my mum around town on sex well not really but it wasnt Username: Created by Grahame LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL OMG! They get worse! hahahahahahaha Current Mood: silly

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01:06 pm Omg! Scummouth was right! This hiku thing is VERY accurate! LiveJournal Haiku! Your name: candlebaby Your haiku: fuck just another language to be slobbered over by some sick Username: Created by Grahame Current Mood: bouncy

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July 31st, 2005

03:26 am - Vivaaaa La Climax... la la la I have just had the loveliest night with the loveliest person :-) Feet Ache immencely.. Limbs sore, head hurts, have to work tomorrow morning at 10 am.. But oh so very Contented :-) :-) I need a Sweedish Massuse.. ;) Current Mood: Joyful Current Music: Dripping from my left open window...

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July 26th, 2005

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July 7th, 2005

07:37 pm - God Bless London. God Fuck Terroirists How could this happen?? I feel as if my heart will break for my country. National pride for the olympic bid is gone. Those mother fuckers. They took what it took us 60 years to earn. They have taken limbs from people, children, taken dad's from their families, they have taken grandmothers from their grand children. Tears feel useless. i feel useless. Why us. Why now... Current Mood: Deverstated Current Music: BBC news 24

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July 4th, 2005

05:33 pm - Happiness Bottled and Sold.. Im waiting for the finished result.. Its my brother and sisters first wedding anniversery. Ive been sneaking around for ages.. finallllllyy they have just got in the bath (all three of them..) so I snuck into their room, put up banners, sprinkled the bed with happy anniversery connfetti... got a gorgeous big boquet of flowers and some presents for them and the baby.. oh and helium ballons sayig happy anniversery on.. altho my main motive for that was to suck up the hellium afterwards ;) They are still in the bath... Cant wait :) OMG I HAVE GOT A HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!! Its an amazing three bedroom 4 floors house (including the basement which I have HUGE plans for.. My dream of my own personal Dungeon is coming true!!) Its in crookesmore near crookes and its perfect! It has a massive health food shop selling lots of veggie, vegan and organic stuff so jo is gonna get a job there, a big park with a lake around the back, all my friends live in crookes.. life is just PERFECT!! Im sooo happY! To everyone.. You have to come around for coffee ;) Im gonna have a big housewarming and BBQ so anyone reading is invited! Bring a bottle aye ;) Got a text back from Annetta.. :D I told her I was a lesbian and was well worried.. but she said she already know coz I liked Kaligula!! So maybe she did send that other text on purpose.. hmm guess we will see hehe. Lisa is staying with me after the all day Climax.. ahem lol New house.. ok never mind.. Indecent thoughts! Damn it I wanna move NOW! Im so impatient.. i get to move on the 12th now rather than the 13th.. One extra moving day! WOOHOO!! LIFE FUCKING RULES!!!!!! Current Mood: giddy Current Music: Nobody's home - Avril Lavgine

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July 2nd, 2005

11:30 am - I can't take my eyes off of you.. I am big time screwed. I got flashed by a speed camera last night. Ususally that would be ok.. but in my circumstances at the min, its not.. Im not sure on how many miles per hour grace i have before i get banned.. Lets just hope. but for FUCKS SAKE! It was 4am in the morning and not a soul to be seen. Nearly cried when it flashed tho lol. Maybe ill get luck and my number plate will be blurred or someone will vandalise the camera.. Maybe I could vandalise the camera? hmm now theres an idea! i went to Ng1 last night with Lisa. She has to be the most incrediable and fabulous creature I have ever met! God I love her. China has been cancelled so she's here for the entire summer! Im very excited. She wants me to entertain her the whole summer! So far we have planned.. Ng1 every friday and sometimes on a saturday, all day climax (3 til 3!! Omg it will be so much fun!) Corporation on a saturday night sometime, Dempseys, Nottingham Pride, possibly London pride, Loads! Im so happy! I was gutted she's leaving, now I get her for a little longer :-P She even kissed me last night. holy shit haha. Shes fantastic. We went to a pub called the lord roberts and the barman was Bulgarian. So of course I started chatting to him in Bulgarian and he nearly fell over lol. Why is it so suprising that a English girl can speak a word or two of a remote language? if us English werent so damn pig ignorance maybe we would all speak 2 languages like most other people in europe do. We are babied. It pisses me off. Speaking of other languages, I got a text from Annetta last night. I kinda wonder if it got lost in translation, but it was a very sweet but intimate text! The kind of thing you would send to someone you just started going out with.. ekk! She is well nice tho.. But I think she's striaght?? she had a boyfriend.. Altho she did used to go in Caligula in plovdiv which is the local gay club so who knows...?? Maybe she's bi!? God I would kill for a Bulgarian girlfriend again. I miss everything about the beauty of a European woman! Annetta is lovely.. who knows eh ;) I must pay for my Livejournal again! i lost all my little icons it took me so long to find. Oh well I have them saved somewhere on my other nasty evil laptop. Think im going to play on Sims again today. I need to create a new family! Think ill create me, Scummouth and sleeping flower in a house. Send us off to uni prehaps? will be fun. i just created a African family called the monsoons. The daddy male monsoon guy called philip is a right bastard! He runs into other peoples houses in his trench coat (and no he's not a flasher.. altho you can streak naked through the dorms in college hehe) and slaps them around the face and runs off! Ive created a monster.. Doh. Current Mood: mellow Current Music: Placebo - Soulmate

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July 1st, 2005

02:26 am - The wombles made me do it.. I'm not quite sure what has been going on with me or inside of me recently. Probably another side effect of 'the changes' that happen. Meh. A few of my thoughts... Extremely pissed off with Cemil yesturday. Cemil is a turkish guy that speaks fluent Bulgarian. Chance meeting on the train etc bla bla. We meet for coffee sometimes and basically I brush up my bulgarian on him and he speaks English to me (He's learning). He always asks me to come over after work. Baring in mind that I finish a midnight. I always say no. Coz I dont want to go over to someones house at that time! My job is stressful and I cant be arsed with men after a shift. I just want to go home. Anyway, yesturday I sent him a voice message do you wanna have kafe tomorrow morning? . The ususal shit. Anyway, he calls me all pissy saying he spent his last £15 on credit just to call me to BEG me to come over to his after work. I said no... therefore he told me he would never speak to me again if I didnt go over that night! Bastard! What sort of a fucking ponce does he think I am? I'll be damned if ill be black mailed into going over. Asshole. Jo knows him too. Apparently he got very drunk and was trying to get FAR too close to jo when she was kissing jean, and also he was all over her period. Im sad because he spoke Bulgarian, I kept forgetting that he wasnt a Bulgarian man. In fact, every turkish man I know has been a complete slimy bastard thats tried to sleep with me. Im sorry but it has to be said.. and I HATE it when people say this!! But.. They are all the same :( I was watching the brothel again today and it occured to me that theres no limits. With my body, with other peoples bodies. These beautiful gorgeous girls that you would be like OMG and want to be around them on the pornos etc. The next min, they have stripped their clothes and have some bastard like Rocco degrading and raping them in every which orifice. To me, no one is a mystery anyone physically. Im not even a mystery to anyone! I swear to god prostitution has marred me for life. My own pure fault. My niece likes beer. Oh yes she does I have pics on here I just dont know how to upload them. but HOLY SHIT! I thought she just liked carling cans because of the colours. but at 4 months old, she grabs it with both hands, tips it up to her mouth, opens her mouth to drink.. its awful! But the thing is, joe had a beer in a GLASS (not a coloured one, just plain) and zea yet again couldnt get enough of it! She stared and tried to get it. She doesnt do that with anything but beer! My 4 month old niece will be an alcoholic by the time she's 1. Fucking youth drinking culture is no more. Its toddler age now!! I watched Ghetto Gospel by tupac and elton john the video. I cried. But then again, I just watched American history X. Omg.. that was one of the most disturbing films. It was heartbreaking. The one curb scene I couldnt get out of my head. Still now i can see it and feel it when I let myself. Has anyone else seen it? if not, watch it. i have it on CD if you have a computer. But be warned. Its disturbing!!! I still dont have a place to live yet. Jo is fucking around. I cant afford a place on my own yet she cant afford a simple amount of rent a month coz she has no job. GET A FUCKING JOB THEN! I will be homeless on August 1st. As in HOMELESS! I cant stay here after then. I wish she would get her shit together and get a job and we could move. Its scary the thought of no where to live. Please God send me some clarity. I need to rid myself of this self loathing for the life I lead. I love myself which is why my own disgrace is what causes my demise. how the fuck could I come back and kiss the baby knowing what I have done today. Im a sickened woman. Current Mood: Empty Current Music: Antique e Slavi - Why

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